i feel a real loss of human connection. that communication between the finger tips and anothers skin. i feel adrift.
being awkward around women because years of rejection have made you incapable of small talk for fear of being shunned.
seeing everyone around you being happy, knowing full well that they are now, but all you can see is what they have and you do not.
being walked on constantly
" aww, i love you scott…you such a good dude "
i mean really, what do i get for being a nice guy, steady employment, i dont do drugs, or hit women…